“I have Fiona.”
“Of course you have Fiona.”
“I don’t know for how long.”
“Then come for however long you need.”
I booked two one-way tickets to New York using money from a savings account that was solely in my name.
It was not much.
But it was mine.
I did not tell David where we were going.
I did text him before leaving for O’Hare.
Fiona is with me and safe. I’m staying with family for a few days while we figure out next steps. You can reach me by phone.
He did not respond.
That silence would matter later.
At the time, it only hurt.
By the time I boarded the flight, I had barely slept for two nights.
Fiona had slept badly too.
She woke while we were waiting for takeoff and immediately asked for the stuffed rabbit she had carried since she was three.
I found it wedged beneath the seat.
Then she wanted apple juice.
Then she wanted to know when we were going home.
That question nearly finished me.
“We’re going to see Cousin Natalie first,” I told her.
“But when are we going home?”
I kissed her forehead.
“Soon, sweetheart.”
I hated myself for saying it because I did not know what home meant anymore.
A woman seated behind us made an exaggerated sigh.
“Great,” she muttered. “A crying kid.”
Fiona was not actually crying yet.
Her lower lip was trembling.
I felt the old reflex immediately.